Just, when I thought the door was closed, it got flung open. I'm pregnant - the result of a little carelessness, a dash of recklessness and a foolhardy premise that people don't fall accidentally pregnant at the age of 38. It has taken a while to digest the news and I have to admit I've had mixed feelings - a deep sense of peace at times, mounting anxiety and fear at other times (as in, "what the hell was I thinking?!") but overall it is good and I'm okay.
I should also apologise for my absence (maybe? I'm not sure who checks in these days?) Life is busy. My new routine (two children in two different schools as opposed to one child in one school) has taken a lot out of me (not to mention morning sickness and first trimester fatigue). Transitioning Willow to school has been challenging (and I've found myself caught in yet another cycle of grief and rage). Fortunately, we found the right school (or perhaps it found us - we really were so lucky) and that helps incredibly (in fact, the alternative doesn't bear thinking about).
I'm still grabbling with some depression and anxiety but I have a wonderful therapist and a very supportive husband. I also should say that I have ever increasing concerns about my privacy (and Willow's) here on the internet... but for the moment I'll keep writing and sharing in the hope that my story (and Willow's) will be helpful to others "out there".
Thursday, 15 May 2008
Change of plans
Posted by Em at 11:48 AM
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Wow! Congratulations!
I'm proud of you, em!
That's fantastic news - daunting, yes, but fantastic!
Congratulations! Wow.
I still read! I get your blog on Google reader though, so it's hard to notice the absence of posts. Glad to see you back in bloggy action, and (of course) my congrats on the 4th (!!) little Emlette.
Congratulations Em!
Soon there will be more treasures to remember and share. You are a lucky woman.
All the best.
wow wow wow! congratulations. And I wonder, are there many people who could actually identify you or Willow in real life? I'm sure your writing helps others and can but assume that it helps you too. Lovely to hear from you again.
Wow! Congratulations on your impending wee one.
I have to admit, I'm a little envious...no matter how it happened. A large part of me would love a third one, but it wouldn't make a whole lot of sense for us right now. And yet... sigh.
I still read, I love reading your blog. I always wish I could help when you need it or even be that shoulder we all need sometimes.
I think the news about number 4 is awesome and congratulations to you and your family.
I also agree with what Plum had said about being identified, I think the chances are so slim to none and your posts are helpful to a huge number of people I'm sure.
Sorry the deleted comment was mine, I hadn't quite said what I wanted and couldn't edit it. Didn't realise it still shows as being deleted otherwise I simply would have posted a second comment.
That is beautiful news! I still check in and wish only the best for your lovely family. It will be challenging, yes, but this all seems like it was meant to be. Congratulations!
Congratulations. Having children is a huge journey; an adventure of the emotions. No doubt there will be times when you wonder whether you are up to it all (I have these moments all the time!) but there are many, many times when the rewards of 4 are far greater than you ever could have imagined. It can be tough when the 4th is very young, but it just gets better and better. And for me, whenever the needs of my neediest child feel overwhelming, there are 3 other children to bring me fresh perspective on the world.
Enjoy the challenges and the rewards,Em.
Congratulations Em on the pregnancy. I wish I was young and fecund enough to have 4 kids... I should be so lucky! In my mind 2 or 4 or 5 would be perfect to avoid the problem with 3 where one gets lost in the middle. (can you tell I was a middle child of 3?). anyway, wishing you a healthy, safe, easy pregnancy.
Em - congratulations!!! I must confess that now I am well into 40 I share the same feeling but (unfortunately - in some ways!) won't end up in your situation! No. 4 - a lovely family... I hope the pregnancy is treating you well.
I've been meaning to congratulate you since you first posted... Congratulations!
Congratulations!! What a fabulous accident. All the little treasures from your previous post will be had again - you lucky thing.
shelly
Hey, congratulations! I clicked through here through All Consuming's blog and what a wonderful first post to visit. I hope the pregnancy goes well.
Hi Em,
I found your blog and would like to invite you to participate in an Ambassador Program focused on kids nutrition. Sorry for the random post, I couldn't find an email contact. If you're interested, visit http://www.vegiepouroverbuzz.com.au/content/default.html?a=111 for more info. Touch base if you have any questions. I hope to see you in the program.
Cheers,
Huxley
OH.MY.GOD.
Been a while. Just dropped by on a whim.
And well, what news.
Welcome to the world of four...
... I think.
I'm a new reader to your blog, but I just finished your archives and wow! What a great post to finish on - congratulations on your pregnancy! :)
Congratulations!
I keep hoping that I am not too old to have another. I just turned 37.
We have 7, and can say that after the 3rd, you jump into the large family realm, and it is a fantastic place to be! It gets more and more amazing with each child, and each milestone, and more and more loving all the time.
It has been some time now since I visited and this was a lovely post to completely stumble upon. How are you feeling nowadays? I hope you are happy and of course, healthy whilst carrying number 4!
You very lucky lady...x
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